Track Listing :
1. Take a Guess
2. Half of It
3. Cupid’s Eye Patch
4. Two and Two
5. Big Blue Ball
6. Watch Your Head
7. Self-Proclaimed Self Reliance
8. As Good as Mine
9. Self-Inflicted Deafness
10. Blank
11. Not Big Words
(Just a Lot of Words)
(Just a Lot of Words)
12. Ticket into Heaven
13. My Worst Critic
Take A Guess what have we here get a handle on yourself can’t shut it up forever you pulled me aside and said stop running from yesterdays lies I know you know you’ve been bottled up air tight
blue in the face and bled white
it’s time you spelled it out right
do you believe beyond the benefit of the doubt
benefit of the what
yes double-guess the obvious
if that's what you’re asking
we’ll see what we can do
our minds are made up
our minds are made up of whatever it takes
until the choices are making us
the choices are making us my friend
do you believe in justice and fairness
shorter end of the stick
all the better to beat the dead horse with
how is your appetite
face duct-taped at the head of the buffet
how do you sleep at night
still using a nightlight
how many fingers am I holding up
if that’s what you’re asking
we’ll see what we can do
our minds are made up of whatever it takes
until the choices are making us
the choices are making us my friend
do you believe in justice and fairness
shorter end of the stick
all the better to beat the dead horse with
how is your appetite
face duct-taped at the head of the buffet
how do you sleep at night
still using a nightlight
how many fingers am I holding up
if that’s what you’re asking
we’ll see what we can do
our minds are made up
our minds are made up of whatever it takes
until the choices are making us
the choices are making us my friend
how have things been going at home
the deed has been redone
they say it’s time brother john bought the farm
kid I’m not much for your psycho babbling
how is your concentration
there is something on the wall
I don’t know who wrote this
next one’s protocol
if you disappeared tomorrow
would anyone notice you’re gone
you say jump I say how far is the fall
I’ve been wondering if I’ve been wandering too far
how did I get here who’ll get me out alive
all the time I spent wishing I could fly
I could’ve built a rocket and sling shot it to the sky
but I lied cried brain fried landed by your side
kid you’ve got quite the imagination
do people clap when you survive a normal conversation
take a guess
Half of It tear this apart scratching around in the dark you’ll find a ruptured heart with punctured skin and bones through five windows
I’ve been peering in
throughout your soul
hear touch taste smell see all you want
never can be gathered
every bit of what’s been scattered here
through a crystal clear view
you still have your work cut out for you
something seems to be missing
that’s half of it
mix my questions with your questions
do you plan to fill me in
you’re puzzling to my peace of mind
with your excuses piled up this high
honestly why try to plot it any thicker
we’re treading through thick and thin
trying to even out these burdens
are you certain you heard silent screaming
help me help me out
you can’t complete me
but you can still reach me now
I’m still falling
spill it egghead
you know full well
breaking out of your shell
all the kings horses and all the kings men
couldn’t put humpty together again
so they talk talk more talk
as off the wall another one falls
here lies my head in your hands
something seems to be missing
that’s half of it
mix my questions with your questions
do you plan to fill me in
but you don't answer
when you don’t answer
why
Cupid's Eye Patch
don’t say you didn’t see it coming
I don’t understand the first thing
about the way you’re put together
giving mind body and soul
not necessarily in that order
as we recklessly run
fly by night one on one
to what we should be wise enough
fly by night one on one
to what we should be wise enough
to run away from
I was wondering kind of sort of a little bit
could you possibly
get out of me what I want
get out of me what I want
down slide or upswing
heads cocked to the side eyes wide and grinning
taking delight in the nagging possibilities
I’m really just a prisoner jump roping in my chains
trying to beat you hands down at social charades
innocent enough behind all these words
sometimes I think you hope
I get what you deserve
was this a coincidence
can we pass it off as an accident
since when has the aim been
to get the hit or miss waiting to happen
when it’s not that I block your vision
or you block mine
tell me why can’t we see
we’re blind
should I say sorry I opened my mouth
nothing good came out of it
out of touch tied in tongue standing now
who means to make it hard if it’s not where it counts
are you trying to confuse me with your little rules about
how what guard goes up in time must come down
whether you talk your way out
or you talk your way through
the facts get bigger as they get closer
like most things do
was this a coincidence
can we pass it off as an accident
since when has the aim been
to get the hit or miss waiting to happen
when it’s not that I block your vision
or you block mine
tell me why can’t we see
we’re blind
cupid’s got an eye patch
was this a coincidence
can we pass it off as an accident
since when has the aim been
to get the hit or miss waiting to happen
when it’s not that I block your vision
or you block mine
tell me why can’t we see
we’re blind
cupid’s got an eye patch
don’t say you didn’t see it
Two and Two
for more on confusion go to my head
see other side and roll me over again
this game of life came full loaded with dice
does that mean I can drop out at anytime
say alright you win confirm my suspicion
I’m never right
one two can you tie your shoes
three four run back for more
take it for what it is
or tell me what we came here for
true befriends false when whichever way it falls
there is a choice representing no choice at all
when honesty calls hand it over
if it doesn’t kill me it will make me wonder
I’ve been beaten common senseless
with my eyes so far back in my head
there was room for nothing else to sink in
intellectualize this
someday you're going to die
does that make any sense
well good neither does your life
and I should go play outside
for more on left unsaid get to the bottom
see other side and roll it over again
off in the distance tires are spinning
can you see some wound tight rocket scientist
about to chase a butterfly off a cliff
sit and think about this
someday you're going to die
does that make any sense
well good neither do I
and I should go play outside
somewhere there’s a point
to know this might be enough
I put two and two together
I still live only once
one two can you tie your shoes
three four run back for more
take it for what it is
or tell me what we came here for
so caught up in everything
but only truly caught between
who we are and who we are becoming
who we are who are we to say
when we take it only so far
get our name on it and run away
Big Blue Ball
what gets it rolling
were you sitting around last night
watching solutions circle the world
hundreds at a time
to get them into our minds
would you have to whip out a chisel
I want to know what you know
and what you think of it
potential blood sucker born every second
life spent hording cash just to count it
then congratulations you win the biggest coffin
with your eyes kept on the threat
something else will smack you upside the head
I want to have what you have
and what you’ll have with it
I can’t put things up high enough can I kid
you better learn to do what you’re told
or I’ll flash your life in front of your eyes
so many times it’ll get old
someday you’re going to wake up dead
what are you going to believe in then
some say believe in yourself
maybe I should ask and what else
watch the big blue ball roll around again
baby I want to show you the world
but not some of the ideas on it
nobody can dig a pit that deep
unless they’re standing in it first
nobody should listen that close
yet avert from everything they’ve heard
nobody’s rock and hard place holds them together
sometimes the blood on my hands
might as well have been my own forever
watch the big blue ball roll around again
baby I want to show you the world
but not some of what you’re born into
Watch Your Head
sometimes we make it worse than it is
half the time that is our problem
stumbling through this mental block called my head
no true way around it no two ways about it
where is the do it yourself kit
can I rewire this
how I feel for you
he says so much I feel for you
can you feel for me
I don’t want to hide to seek but retreat
when it hits from all sides
left to the middle I seem
is it too late to see that I should free myself from myself
there's always something that should’ve been said
who can say it now if it mattered then
don’t cripple yourself
and think the truth stands on it’s head
can I feel for you
he says so much I feel for you
can you feel for me
I don’t want to relapse collapse and fall back
don’t you dare quit the world
just to rid yourself of those selfish ways
if still to a beast you slave
at least free yourself from yourself
what you’re running from eventually haunts you
hunts you down relentlessly taunts you
and when you’ve got nothing to lose
you better watch your head
I’ll admit I find it funny when you think you’ve broken me
to find me back standing right where I said I would be
in the midst of this frantic firing
you’re leading me around
I see you set me up for that need to knock me down
I’m through thinking I could ever breathe for you
and I won’t leave it up to you to teach me
to take care of myself
for more on confusion go to my head
see other side and roll me over again
this game of life came full loaded with dice
does that mean I can drop out at anytime
say alright you win confirm my suspicion
I’m never right
one two can you tie your shoes
three four run back for more
take it for what it is
or tell me what we came here for
true befriends false when whichever way it falls
there is a choice representing no choice at all
when honesty calls hand it over
if it doesn’t kill me it will make me wonder
I’ve been beaten common senseless
with my eyes so far back in my head
there was room for nothing else to sink in
intellectualize this
someday you're going to die
does that make any sense
well good neither does your life
and I should go play outside
for more on left unsaid get to the bottom
see other side and roll it over again
off in the distance tires are spinning
can you see some wound tight rocket scientist
about to chase a butterfly off a cliff
sit and think about this
someday you're going to die
does that make any sense
well good neither do I
and I should go play outside
somewhere there’s a point
to know this might be enough
I put two and two together
I still live only once
one two can you tie your shoes
three four run back for more
take it for what it is
or tell me what we came here for
so caught up in everything
but only truly caught between
who we are and who we are becoming
who we are who are we to say
when we take it only so far
get our name on it and run away
Big Blue Ball
what gets it rolling
were you sitting around last night
watching solutions circle the world
hundreds at a time
to get them into our minds
would you have to whip out a chisel
I want to know what you know
and what you think of it
potential blood sucker born every second
life spent hording cash just to count it
then congratulations you win the biggest coffin
with your eyes kept on the threat
something else will smack you upside the head
I want to have what you have
and what you’ll have with it
I can’t put things up high enough can I kid
you better learn to do what you’re told
or I’ll flash your life in front of your eyes
so many times it’ll get old
someday you’re going to wake up dead
what are you going to believe in then
some say believe in yourself
maybe I should ask and what else
watch the big blue ball roll around again
baby I want to show you the world
but not some of the ideas on it
nobody can dig a pit that deep
unless they’re standing in it first
nobody should listen that close
yet avert from everything they’ve heard
nobody’s rock and hard place holds them together
sometimes the blood on my hands
might as well have been my own forever
watch the big blue ball roll around again
baby I want to show you the world
but not some of what you’re born into
Watch Your Head
sometimes we make it worse than it is
half the time that is our problem
stumbling through this mental block called my head
no true way around it no two ways about it
where is the do it yourself kit
can I rewire this
how I feel for you
he says so much I feel for you
can you feel for me
I don’t want to hide to seek but retreat
when it hits from all sides
left to the middle I seem
is it too late to see that I should free myself from myself
there's always something that should’ve been said
who can say it now if it mattered then
don’t cripple yourself
and think the truth stands on it’s head
can I feel for you
he says so much I feel for you
can you feel for me
I don’t want to relapse collapse and fall back
don’t you dare quit the world
just to rid yourself of those selfish ways
if still to a beast you slave
at least free yourself from yourself
what you’re running from eventually haunts you
hunts you down relentlessly taunts you
and when you’ve got nothing to lose
you better watch your head
I’ll admit I find it funny when you think you’ve broken me
to find me back standing right where I said I would be
in the midst of this frantic firing
you’re leading me around
I see you set me up for that need to knock me down
I’m through thinking I could ever breathe for you
and I won’t leave it up to you to teach me
to take care of myself
Self-Proclaimed Self Reliance
I’m almost pretty sure you want to tell me everything
but you want me to know nothing
saying take my word who knows where
and tell me you heard it from me when it gets there
I’m almost pretty sure we don’t know what we’re doing
but that has never stopped us from trying anything else
I’ll take your word who knows where
if you swear to say a prayer for the future
when we get there when we get there
we’ll be aware
why we’re here
why would you worry what’s worth the worry not this time and not this time why would you hurry why would you hurry up just to wait and watch it pass you by early this morning and late last night I was talking to myself again and looking for advice oh what to do how about this scratch your head and make a sound effect I think you think we think you're wrong
stack it up add it up counting on a helping hand and holding your own would you take your own word or would you rather take it to your grave rest-assured everything is the only thing worth chasing as you pack it up to move it out handle with care look at the time there goes your ride why would you worry what’s worth the worry not this time and not this time why would you hurry why would you hurry up just to wait and watch it pass you by look at the ditto I found it goes faster up as it comes around should I go mark it down as another discount we don’t know what we’re buying we don’t know what we’ve bought the only thing getting cheaper in this life is the talk How may I help you Come again
As Good As Mine
aw look at you
tell me what your looking at
haven't you ever seen the weight of the world
strapped on one man's back
yes I'm Levi's son
I'm very much alive been trying to climb this mountain since the day that my daddy died
aw look at you tell me what your looking at haven't you ever seen a desperate act bring somebody back I guess I'm not the only one deathbed note in my pocket I'm not supposed to read it until I reach the top of this mountain nevermind what I will go through nevermind I'll gladly do it for you nevermind I fear what I'll find I'm going to get it all as good as mine
this might be a mission to justify my existence I made my decision clear out keep your distance yes I've been thinking I should settle these old scores but I've been finding that there's more there is more to this there is always more to... this must be the top can I get any higher this must be the top my air has gotten thinner this must be the top all I've got is a chill greed in me snowballs and can't be rolled back up its hill nevermind I can't feel my hands nevermind I'll take it as far as I can stand nevermind I question stars aligned I'm going to get it all as good as mine
aw look at you tell me what your looking at Haven't you ever seen somebody ask about the drawbacks scale the heights to spin around hands thrown in the air watch out when the clouds come down somebody shout get down from there nevermind I can't see a thing nevermind maybe there is nothing to see nevermind I forgot what I came to find did I ever get it all as good as mine
sometimes I'd give anything maybe I'd give everything if I could get myself something worth keeping pull out daddy's note see what it says someday your day may come but don't trade your life in for it
Self-Inflicted Deafness
caught here in your revolving door
would you like to tell me what I’m here for
past life in pictures line the wall
it’s dead in here except voices down the hall
is there a place for me
to press my face against the glass
if not could you please pass the time
my life seems to be for
writing be back soon on the devil's door
falling flat on my face
trying to face up to false beliefs
I’d love to tell you everything
I’d love to tell you everything
my version of the truth
as plain as I think it
sometimes it’s only what you make of it
my head has hit this wall too many times I’m thinking straight but seeing cross-eyed and I guess that makes a change we stopped at nothing to change sanity has become a madness all it’s own everybody is trying it
pull out the cash you can buy it but pity for a dime will burn a hole in your pocket here we’re in the same boat with some silly trying to rock it you better buy me a big box and put it beneath a bridge does my diagnoses read self-inflicted deafness are you going to put your foot down or are you going to kick my well nobody knows but maybe if I listen real close
Blank
wouldn’t you like to believe everything happens for a reason should I shake this dust off my feet but keep the reasons to believe drifting might settle me down so it comes and goes on back to this can’t forget the time has arrived to move on wouldn’t we like to believe everything happens for a reason striking with lightning what if it doesn’t through our skewed views we see as memory is but a game
rigged by a child who wants nothing but to play and if it made sense yesterday say lets rearrange it so it comes and goes on back to this can’t forget the time has arrived to move on hold on to each moment but never long enough to go down with it and don’t wish to reach too far then reach right past what is worth reaching for the future fills it’s own time before the sands spill no more see what needn’t be left behind to fill the blanks in everyday life
Not Big Words (Just A Lot of Words)
here is a penny for your thoughts
here is a dime for what your not
as you die for what you want
can you live with what you’ve got
not big words just a lot of words
who really knows what they’ve heard
don’t feel the need to explain yourself to me
watching the news stay the same over time
I view myself as a spectator in life
my biggest fear is becoming someone else’s parade animal
as I strut through a highly edited version of myself screaming
not big words just a lot of words
who really knows what they’ve heard don’t feel the need to explain yourself to me watching the news stay the same over time you say nothing anywhere makes any sense or so it seems I don’t think you wish to know me I is the most frequently used word in the dictionary facts like that tend to scare me I have never toured the country If I did my family would think it was because I was a truck driver everyday I drive by where my brother works because that is where my father works past where my other brother works just to get to where my mother works with one check and no cash with some gas light flashing on my dash they say here is a penny for your thoughts and here is a dime for what your not
Ticket into Heaven
she said should I pack my bags
and try to get away again
it didn’t work when I was twelve
but I’ve got more to run away from now
he said you haven’t got a prayer
and if you did I bet nobody would listen
she said you can’t control me
now do you know what it feels like to be god
are you going to get yourself the ticket into heaven
and sit around and flaunt it
even if you didn’t buy it
or are you going to get yourself a little piece of heaven
and grow it down on this earth
before you have to sell it
between you me and four walls
these walls are pretty thin
do you think you should be telling me this
when they think your safe and soundly sleeping
have you been through hell and back
what’s your take on the view
is that disease going to die
an hour after you do
are you going to get yourself the ticket into heaven and sit around and flaunt it even if you didn’t buy it or are you going to get yourself a little piece of heaven and grow it down on this earth before you have to sell it she called on her demons to deal with her problems then like hypocrites they crawled through the hospital chapel these memories echo in my brain but never long enough to scare me into reasoning when are you coming home don’t leave me here alone I don’t know you anymore but it’s not like I did before are you sleeping brother john you can not take this lying down morning bells are ringing
My Worst Critic
could you spare a little faith
could you spare a little confidence
could I be you for one day
then maybe I’d get through this
sometimes I do believe you don’t want to hear it
but hell look at me I’m the one living it
throw this back when you are finished
don’t worry about breaking me
don’t worry about breaking this
leave it up to me I’ll take care of it
I can guarantee I’m my worst critic
can I take my life now
and put it to application
as I’m reading all your books
and pretending I understand them
oh well now you know
maybe it goes to show
you cannot read someone else
until you can read yourself well
I suppose if there’s anything I should learn from life
it’s once upon a time lost inside a dream
the path split both ways
and I had to wake up as me
with a crazy thought in my head
should I lock it up and keep it
or would you like me to decode this
through the efforts of well said
well said too many times
will leave you in your head
as you’re going out of your mind
correct me if I’m wrong
it's like being two different people
and right now they happen to be getting along
if I could I would shut one off
can’t push the button for you
it’s just my life laying on your line
you can take it and you can rate it
better throw it back when you’re finished
don’t worry about breaking me
I tried to get a break from this
this voice inside that keeps getting louder
it says don’t you wish you could get paid
for listening by the hour to me
